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Thursday, February 6, 2014

Who's crazy? Me crazy?? Not anymore. :)


I've been in this Made To Crave online Bible study through Proverbs 31 for 3 weeks now. (Click HERE for more info on the study) 3 weeks...can you believe it?! I can't! ha This has been life changing...one of those times I've said & will say again, "Man, I wish I had heard this sooner." But, I'm so thankful I'm learning so much now about who God made me for Him. :)

Thursdays are for the Blog Hop. Many of us ladies (& a few men) get a few topics we can pick from to do a blog post about. Then we get to share our links with each other & learn together on this journey. I've been struggling all day with what to post about in the topics given as this study has God to bless me in so many ways. One of the many things I've noticed for sure is the battle I've had with food & how that battle caused me to hit #CrazyMode status repeatedly doesn't happen anymore! Whew!

One day I'm feelin' it...that "I'm sexy & I know it" way about things. The next day I feel like the frumpiest person ever that can't for the life of her get it together. One day I can see junk food & not even bat my pretty brown eye as it has nothing on me! The next day that crap becomes like the Sirens in Greek Mythology, causing me to forget everything else just to have it's decadence! One day that number on the scale is just another number in my life. The next day it's the holy Grail of scales that needs to show a certain number or I will surely be cursed! You feelin' what I'm talkin' about??

Like I said, this thing with food & cravings has been a BATTLE. Food has controlled me for so long. How I looked & what I weighed have been issues for just as long. My opinions, which were negative, & others opinions of me physically have left scars & caused #CrazyMode status way too many times. I did just as Lysa Terkuerst said she did. I'd go into withdrawal mode so to build walls around my heart & keep to myself. Or I'd go into fix-it mode so to try to fix the situation so I was accepted, liked, etc.  Just typing this has made me tired...let alone living it! ha Anyway, thank You God that is not the case anymore!

I crave God now more than ever...& rather than food! I crave knowing Him deeper so to know me as He knows me. I crave having #peace in my soul as my weight loss goal. :) And I now know what it's like to step on a scale & know that those are just numbers regarding my weight...not numbers regarding my value! God is awesome & when I FINALLY let Him lead & show me how to take this weight loss/healthy living journey, I FINALLY get to just be me...not the #CrazyMode girl that has to fight & war within herself constantly. Whew! :) I'm a Jesus-girl. I'm a child of God that is loved, forgiven, adored, priceless, & finally SET FREE! Wahoooooo! :)


P31 OBS Blog HopProverbs 31 Ministries Online Bible Studies 

6 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing #crazymode, I can identify with you on so many levels. So glad that you are at the point of craving God more than anything else. Blessings. Small Group Leader.

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    1. @Lori Blackwell, No problem! I know if I feel this way, there are probably many women that do. lol Why not be real with each other & share even in the struggles? :)

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  2. Thank you so much for stopping by my blog earlier! <3 I love the support ... and I am here to share it with you too. I can relate to you in so many things you said... I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!! :) I too feel that Made to Crave has changed my life! Look forward to reading more from you!

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    1. @Amy S, Sure, no problem! Thank you for the encouragement. :) Very much appreciated.

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  3. #Crazymode....oh, yea, I'm feelin' ya!! This was a funny, and so on target with the way our emotions rule!! But not when we let our Father lead!! When we give it all to Him, we get the #peace He promises. He's totally awesome like that!! Thanks very much for sharing this. Awesome post!! Blessings to you!!

    Trish (OBS Blog Hop Team)

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    1. @Trish, lol. Thank you! It is isn't it?! :) God is good all the time. I'm thankful for this life I get to live with Him in lead. Thanks for stopping by! :)

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